So I have been thinking

Here we are at the 2nd Annual Christine Grayson Halloween Party. I was the Karate Kid and Scott was suppose to be Mr. Miage.

So, I keep thinking lately about the future. What is coming our way in the next few years. Scott and I have had quite a history in the past six years that we have spent together and to think about what is to come is so exciting. When we get to add little ones to our little family, continuing to had new brother-in-laws to the mix ( my sister is getting married this coming June) and new friends that continue to enter our path.

The Lord continues to teach me new things through each of these experiences, but yet I still feel so anxious about what is to come. The timing of events, how things will happen, what should I be prepared for in the future. and the truth is that I have no clue! With all of these questions that continue to keep my attention. It is so hard to believe that I already have the answer to all of them. I completely believe in my heart that the Lord has complete control of everything in my life, it is just that mind part that continues to spiral out of control. I know that all of my worry and wondering truly is a waste of time, so why does it continue to consume me. I guess the real mystery is why I continue down the road that I already have the true answer to?

My Lord is in complete control and I know that without Him I would be wondering through this life without purpose, without true comfort and with true question to what the future holds. So I guess what I am trying to say is that each day when I am wondering about so many details about our life: what we will be going through one year from today, how the stock market will be holding up, where will my cousin Harrison who is being shipped out to Afghanistan be, will we be adding any additions to our family. I know the only thing that that I can take hold of and claim is that the Lord is in control and He knows the desires of my heart. Clinging to Him and desiring what He wants for my life is the only stable and true way to live. So when those thoughts of tomorrow come flying into my mind, I just need to continue to remember that all I need is my Lord.